Cathy's Grief - Cracked Cathy

An extract from the new psychological thriller Cracked Cathy out soon by Victoria Ward She had tried to adopt all the usual coping strategies. Had taken root in the library, read everything that had ever been written about grief but it was fruitless. The theory of the five stages of grief was bullshit. It was not systematic. There would never be any acceptance for Cathy. Her baby girl had disappeared. How did you ever accept that? And she had no parents to turn to, no best friend. The jester must have been rubbing his hands together in delight at this gem. You couldn’t put a person through much worse. Well you could. You could put an unwanted baby in her tummy so they couldn’t escape, so they had no choice but to endure. As a desperate attempt to function she told herself the baby inside her was Elisabeth reincarnate. It was the only way that she could get through the day anymore, especially after the will it took not to punch herself in the stomach at the first flutter of butterfly kicks. Mike promised she would cope better when the new baby arrived just like how she had coped better with the death of her parents after Elizabeth was born. He was right she had begun to heal after Elizabeth. She didn’t want to heal this time. https://unbound.com/books/cracked-cathy

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